Bwog thinks about finals and opts to instead live a real life, which is… outside? In our room? Unclear.

“Finals”? Bwog’s never heard of those before. Just kidding, Bwog has very much heard of finals:

• Avoided the looming doomsday feeling of finals until Sunday night, when it hit me all at once
• Thought so, so, so much about syphilis for a final paper
  • (But it’s okay! I want to study epidemiology! Disease is fascinating and terrible!)
• Wrote an eight-page essay completely inspired by “Extraordinary Machine” by Fiona Apple…
  • The essay is about Thomas Hobbes, and not Fiona Apple at all, but it’s a good essay!
• Forgot I have a paper due on Monday
• Had a few moments of breaking down into tears while working on my essay and taking my exam
• Spent Saturday feeling completely foolish because I couldn’t get p-sets done
  • Spent Sunday realizing the p-sets were actually straightforward
• Imagined being a marshmallow, and a slight amount of finals anxiety went away for a bit

Bwog logged off of school and visited the real world:

• Drove an hour and a half each way to take a short walk
  • Was overly proud of this accomplishment (the joys and anxieties of being a new driver)
• Raked a lot of leaves
• Had a lovely walk with my marriage pact match (definitely wife material)
• Put lights up on my house and did yard work and felt very happy
• Walked a six-mile loop with my friend who I hadn’t seen in a while
  • Drank many hot beverages and caught up with each other and re-remembered why she’s one of my best friends
• Went on a walk instead of working and tried to convince myself my neighborhood was actually Morningside Heights
• Injured myself while drunkenly penny boarding at 12 am
• Spent time outside because it’s finally cold in Florida!!! Unheard of!
• Experienced my personal heaven (eating a breakfast burrito on a 1920s dam while looking at mountains)

Bwog logged off of school and instead of visiting the real world, realized there’s no place like my room:

• Was introduced to Rina Sawayama
  • Promptly lost my mind
• Cried because of a blanket
• Started reading a horror novel even though I hate horror
  • Got scared by the horror novel, because I hate horror
  • Funny how that works
• Rummaged through boxes for 10 hours
• Burrowed after many things went wrong
• Bought goth boots and goofed around all evening in my new boot-goofin goth boots!
• Went to sleep at 8 pm, woke up at 11 pm for DWB/Zoom party, fell back asleep at 1 am and slept until 10 am and felt like I had lived many days
• Realized I’m very much still a kid

Image of the great outdoors via Bwog Archives